Next week may be my
last Synod. The price of attendance has
gone up form thirty to fifty-eight dollars.
I have just spent almost two hundred dollars on a hotel room. When
food and gas are included in the price it should be over three
hundred. Besides the price, in the future I may not be able to
reschedule my classes to accommodate the time away.
All in all, not much that happens on the floor
seems worth the trouble. The impact of most of the speeches, greetings,
presentations, urging, encouraging, rebuking,
informing, and thanking will last about as long as the wind it takes to
pass them. Only what effects the actual
running of local churches or church institutions makes any difference. The rest is pageantry.
Thinking back over
my last thirty-two Synods, the one thing that I would truly miss are the people
I have met. They are truly important, and usually have made the trip
worthwhile.
What difference
would it make if Synod were to dissolve tomorrow? Would a single church close if it did? Last fall I watched four churches close, yet few of their members
remain unchurched today, and those who have not yet found new churches are still
going, visiting around. They have not stopped going to church, they are just
been attending different churches. Any American Christian should be able to
find a church. Any church within our denomination ought to be able to find some Reformed body who
would welcome them. As an institution,
we are simply not as important as we think.
But if the ARP
church dissolved, the true sadness of it would not be in the loss of
institutions, but the disruption of friendships. If this is my last
Synod, it would be the people I would
miss, not the institution.
Synod has been for
me a time of sorrows and joy. My
thirty-two Synods have been a succession of friendships gained, lost, regained,
and gone--colleagues of my youth have
moved on, retired, or simply passed away. There have been times when I have
gone up the mountain to celebrate with my friends . Other times, I have gone up
sadly, ashamed to meet my brothers, needing their kind words. Sometimes, I have gone up the hill
angry, but I have always knew that there
were people there who knew me, and I them.
This made me feel happy to come,
regardless of the circumstances.
I have enjoyed the
stories of people I have just met, the opportunities to pray for others and to be prayed for, the
chance to network and share ideas. Synod has been a place where I could meet
heart to heart and soul to soul, and know together the love of God reflected in
others.
What happens under
the trees and in the dining hall is what Synod is really about, much more than what
happens on the floor. It is the most
truly ARP thing about us.
Faith is about
relationships--relationship to God and relationships to others. The business
on the floor is about defending the status quo or reforming
institutions, about worrying over money and power and other worthless
things, squeezing and fussing over
particulars, so we can go on being institutions. The structure quickly overcomes the purpose, like a family that is more concerned about the house they
live in than the home inside. Like that
family, we go on fighting over the color of the drapes and the condition of the
carpet, neglecting the spiritual and emotional conditions of those we love so
we can "get things done."
Church is a great
place to go if you want to run away from God--that is, if you reduce the Body of Christ to an institution,
members of of the Body reduced to church members,
shepherd reduced to an office and Christ reduced to a symbol. The official church moves on, without the power to touch or heal anyone. In
spite of our institutional order, though, the Body of Christ abides and the
gates of hell cannot prevail against it.
The strength of
Synod has very little to do with what we do, but in what we choose to
be--brothers and sisters gathered in a
caring community. This is what makes us
different from all other bodies I know.
We actually see each other face to face once a year. When we forget the importance of these
relationships and think of a denominational meeting as a theology class,
debating society, or (God forbid) a political body, we usually end up doing more harm than
good. When we let our strength, shine,
though, Synod becomes a positive experience.
Sorry to hear that this may be your final Synod, Rev. Flemming. Still, I sympathize with much of what you write in this blog.
ReplyDeleteMay the Lord bring revival to our Synod.